Too many options

When did this 'indecisive-ness' set in?  Is being indecisive the same as having a fear of commitment?
It's kind of amazing that my husband and I moved in together in less than a year, & got married a year after that-- we chose each other and committed to a 'forever' together, even had a child (!)-- based on our recent past and present, you would think we were total commitment-phobes.  We have test driven 18 cars (and counting) over the past year-- owned a Subaru Outback for less than 24hrs, and returned it... who does that, you ask? We do.  There are way too many options!  Goldilocks had three poridges to taste, and easily found the one that was just right-- in this information age of options, ratings, reviews it's unbelievably overwhelming. Can you imagine if we could own a car for 24 hrs to 'make sure', or sleep in your potential future home, just to test it out?

We are in the process of picking a preschool for our kiddo, and that is a daunting task.  Yes, I realize it's just preschool, in the scheme of things-- but you hear about teachers putting sleeping pills in sippy cups, shooters in elementary schools-- and the thought of putting my little one in school at such a young age just makes me feel selfish since I don't currently work.  No school seems to have the exact right feel, hours and price tag--so you either have to compromise somewhere (something's gotta give), open up your own preschool, or there's always homeschooling-- and, let's face it, I am not a 'together' enough parent to do the last two options. But at least I can own up to that. So, in the interest of keeping my options open, I have put down payments on more than a couple of schools to reserve spots. How American of me.

I think part of this new indecisive me was born the same day as our kiddo Griffin. Questioning if I was doing things right, making the 'best' decision (welcome to the world of parenthood).. The 'old me' would fearlessly (spastically?) make a decision without flinching, and reserve the right to change my mind. Overly Confident? Maybe. Flakey? Probably. So maybe this indecisiveness is a growing pain, part of becoming an adult--or maybe I'm just indecisive? I can't decide!